I have 4 friends who have just lost their husbands to leave to deployment.
Two of them are losing them for a year,one for a month,and the last is in Haiti who will be returning soon. The time they are gone doesn't matter. It's the fact that they have left period that have these women crying and needing them more and more. I don't have the proper words to say to them,only that I will be there to listen to any good or bad day they want to vent to me about. They have all been away from their husbands before so they know the drill but it seems it never gets easier each time. I will be soon facing this and need to know what to prepare for as well.
The one thing that is the hardest that I can not comprehend as of yet is that the have left children behind. I couldn't imagine this. Myself, I do not have any any children and do not know the sacrifice they have made to do what they have listed for.
To me, there is no right or wrong in this. I compare it to toilet paper. Whether you put it on over or under, it's on there right? So what's the problem?
The problem is, all these woman are able to handle it gracefully and me............I'm not so sure I will be able too.
I know I will. I just have it in the back of my mind that the worst will go wrong. I have done more than my share of wrongs these past few weeks. Starting fights over the stupidest of things and letting it all get to me just to cry it out alone. Why? I have no earthly idea. I need to stop. That is my plan. To improve these next few weeks so I will be strong on April 27th. I'm not excited about him leaving but I am excited about the little things I will be doing to myself while he is gone. Silly as it is, making dinner for the parents, paying bills, getting into shape, making sure I spend a lot of time with each friend before I leave as well. Like I said, silly things but it's whats going to keep me going.
To Lacy,Laura,Danielle and Brittany you have made it this far, keep up the good work.
31 days.......and counting
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