Been a while since my last post. Florida was great.Just enough sun and plenty to keep me busy. Been home for a week but each day is getting harder and harder for me.I should be looking at the glass half empty instead of half full(it's in my mind that way,hard to change that fact)
This past week has been full of getting my room to a somewhat 'normal' state and plenty of hanging out with friends.Days are moving by faster than I thought. Guess it helps that I am watching about 2 movies a day.Makes me sound like a slob but hey,it's the truth.
I received my first letter from Joey yesterday.He is doing well. Better than I imagined. I just hope that feeling continues as the days get more intense for him. As I was reading it,I heard his voice in the background with the 'lol's' and 'ha-ha's'. His wisdom teeth were pulled(a feat in itself) and did not even suffer.Made my stomach turn thinking of him going through something that scary without me. (And for those who say any type of teeth pulling is not a big deal,they are lying. It is and no one is ever quite prepared for it.)
He misses me. Something in the back of my mind was saying he was glad to get away from me and everyone else but I know now that wasn't the case. He was worried that the move and what I have to go through is becoming to much for me to handle. Figures.....he has one of the hardest jobs around and he is worried about me. I don't tell him every little thing of what goes wrong,there's no need to do that. He has to stay focused and as do I.
I am going to marry that boy,you watch and see
''we said we'd walk together baby come what may
that come the twilight should we lose our way
if as we are walkin' a hand should slip free
ill wait for you
and should I fall behind
wait for me......''
35 days
(to the moon)
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
The Sunshine State
I have been here since Sunday night and have not burned.
As of yet....
It has been relaxing but also a lot of running around to see as many places as I can.
I started writing Joey letters even though I don't have his address yet. I don't want one thing to be let out of not telling him whats going on here. The past two nights have been extremely hard without him.Much like any other woman in my same shoes, I have to remind myself (what seems like twice a day) that I will make it.
Tonight his brother Josh and his wife Lacy came down. Josh recently returned from Haiti and they are taking a much needed vacation together. I love being around the two of them.The feeling they have for each other glow and you can't help but be instantly attracted to them for it. Lacy is very easy to talk to and I never feel like I am being judged when talking or asking her questions. Feels like we have our own little bond in this craziness of military "deployment" we have both shared. I am glad to have her with down here with me.Only if it is for a few days until they head off to Disney World.
It has been a long day and should be better tomorrow,which is Mother's Day.(and Im not with my mom for this-I do not think I have ever missed one until now)
It is very late and to help shred off the tears I am forcing myself to sleep.
11 Days in.....
S.B.C.P
As of yet....
It has been relaxing but also a lot of running around to see as many places as I can.
I started writing Joey letters even though I don't have his address yet. I don't want one thing to be let out of not telling him whats going on here. The past two nights have been extremely hard without him.Much like any other woman in my same shoes, I have to remind myself (what seems like twice a day) that I will make it.
Tonight his brother Josh and his wife Lacy came down. Josh recently returned from Haiti and they are taking a much needed vacation together. I love being around the two of them.The feeling they have for each other glow and you can't help but be instantly attracted to them for it. Lacy is very easy to talk to and I never feel like I am being judged when talking or asking her questions. Feels like we have our own little bond in this craziness of military "deployment" we have both shared. I am glad to have her with down here with me.Only if it is for a few days until they head off to Disney World.
It has been a long day and should be better tomorrow,which is Mother's Day.(and Im not with my mom for this-I do not think I have ever missed one until now)
It is very late and to help shred off the tears I am forcing myself to sleep.
11 Days in.....
S.B.C.P
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Insomnia
So, I have not writing the past few days. They have been pretty hard but also good.
Joey left on Wednesday at 12:07. After a few rough days of no sleep,aggravation,and lots of water he finally took his oath and headed out on the bus to the airport. The drive back from Fort Gillem was hard, I drove as fast and as hard as I could away from that place. I was able to speak to him a few more times that day. At the Atlanta airport as well as in Chicago. We talked about the silliest things and he tried to keep me laughing as much as possible. Even though I was hiding the crying as quiet as I could. He told me he loved me and couldn't wait to get back home.We both knew that it would be a while but the sound of it just sounded so pleasing at that moment.
Today, my family and I moved us out of our first apartment. Without him being there was a difficult task but family being there made the day go by faster. Mom setup my room and I will soon be going to sleep (if Lucy will stop snoring anytime soon) As well as the fact of me driving to Florida in the morning.I am passing Lucy over to Debbie and having a little mini vacation. This last step,of letting Lucy go will tear me up inside for a while. I have never bonded with a pet as much as her.Silly to say but true. She loves being around me and I know it. I will be feeling even more lost without her around when he is gone.
Not having him sleeping beside me is weird. VERY weird. Being together so much in such a little amount of time and having it all taken away is an ever harder situation to deal with. Moving in with him was the best thing I have ever done.His pillow is my pillow now
(It's a large statistic now that young couples like ourselves, usually break up within the first year of living together.It has now been 2 1/2 years. Guess we broke that mold.)
I forget that he is gone and thinking he is going to call or come into the room at any moment.Throughout the day I think what he is doing,what he has eaten today,how tired he is and if he misses home. I jump to my phone now,just knowing that he will be calling. I know it wont be for another 2-3 weeks,but I still do. I miss him.
A lot.
I should be receiving a letter from him within a week or two. I think I will frame it just because I will be so happy to at least know what's going on with him. I just have to keep in mind that he is a big boy and he is not only doing this for him,but for us.
Day 3 and making it.
Joey left on Wednesday at 12:07. After a few rough days of no sleep,aggravation,and lots of water he finally took his oath and headed out on the bus to the airport. The drive back from Fort Gillem was hard, I drove as fast and as hard as I could away from that place. I was able to speak to him a few more times that day. At the Atlanta airport as well as in Chicago. We talked about the silliest things and he tried to keep me laughing as much as possible. Even though I was hiding the crying as quiet as I could. He told me he loved me and couldn't wait to get back home.We both knew that it would be a while but the sound of it just sounded so pleasing at that moment.
Today, my family and I moved us out of our first apartment. Without him being there was a difficult task but family being there made the day go by faster. Mom setup my room and I will soon be going to sleep (if Lucy will stop snoring anytime soon) As well as the fact of me driving to Florida in the morning.I am passing Lucy over to Debbie and having a little mini vacation. This last step,of letting Lucy go will tear me up inside for a while. I have never bonded with a pet as much as her.Silly to say but true. She loves being around me and I know it. I will be feeling even more lost without her around when he is gone.
Not having him sleeping beside me is weird. VERY weird. Being together so much in such a little amount of time and having it all taken away is an ever harder situation to deal with. Moving in with him was the best thing I have ever done.His pillow is my pillow now
(It's a large statistic now that young couples like ourselves, usually break up within the first year of living together.It has now been 2 1/2 years. Guess we broke that mold.)
I forget that he is gone and thinking he is going to call or come into the room at any moment.Throughout the day I think what he is doing,what he has eaten today,how tired he is and if he misses home. I jump to my phone now,just knowing that he will be calling. I know it wont be for another 2-3 weeks,but I still do. I miss him.
A lot.
I should be receiving a letter from him within a week or two. I think I will frame it just because I will be so happy to at least know what's going on with him. I just have to keep in mind that he is a big boy and he is not only doing this for him,but for us.
Day 3 and making it.
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